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General Posts by Krystel Kemper on 11/4/2009
I'm less than 8 months away from starting my mission with God! Words can't describe the feeling that I have on a daily basis. I'm scared, overwhelmed, impatient, nervous, doubtful, excited... but with all of these emotions bottled up inside of me I know that when I lay my head down at night that I can rest assure that God is in control. God will not leave me nor forsake me and I know that I when I have my pillow talks with him I can rest assure that everything is going to be in his hand...the one who created me. He's the author and the finisher of my race!
Let the emotional roller coaster begin...at least I know that God has the controls!
Scared:
Heck yes i'm scared! I'm freakin blown outta my mind that God would do this to me! HA I ask why me Lord..why me? But I know that now's not the time to be asking why me now. It's time for me to prepare mentally, physically, and emotionally!
I checked out cellphone rates..and umm yeah that's outta the question it would be best for me to leave it at home, rates are up to $4 a min in some places.. and I know that if I take my phone I will want to answer it . Plus if i'm going to do this...i'm going to do this right.... I don't need any discrations!
Overwhelmed:
Everyday I wake up with an abundance of emails from the race07-blogs regarding where are we going? I read them but never respond...why? Well i'm usually the one who has an opinion about everythinnnng! But, I know that this is God's plan for me and that he has a devine plan for the July race and he's wants to show up when it's his time. Now's not the time to be impatient its the time to have faith and to listen to the voice of God. He wants to blow all of our minds...but why give us everything up front?
(it's like giving a kid their happy meal toy before they eat)
Impatient:
I can't wait..i count down the days on twitter and facebook and i'm sure my peeps are getting sick of it! Ha... but this is going to be an incredible experience...I can't wait to see God move....and move me:)
Nervous:
Butterflies is all I can say! No family for a year...no cell phone....1 bag with all my clothes...what tha hay? I usually pack over a lg suitcase full just for a weekend trip! Yeah i'm nervous about not takin showers, havein only a few clothes...but it's a sacrifice I will endure and conquer!
Ive been at my job for 4 years...i'm nervous about quiting and not having something to come back to...but then i get this awesome feeling that I know God has it all planned out! He's amazing!!!!
Doubtful:
I have doubts all the time about raising money...but I know that this is God's plan for me and he will supply no matter the cost.
I'm just glad I have all my other WRacers to encourage me along the way!
Excited:
This is an oppurtunity that I would have never imagined. When i looked up mission trips they were for like a few mths...never did I think that God will direct me to a 11mth journey with him...giving him EVERYTHING for a year!
God use me and break me!
I can't wait to meet all the other wracer's and experience this mission with them...after all God has planned this all out for all of us! I"M STOKED!!!!
